Little Things Mean Much

October Sky brings fresher things than pain.

Somebody grew a day older. Somebody reached his legal age. Someone whom I'll never stop hoping for. Someone who successfully broke me down but always fix it. Someone who's been in my heart for these past seven years.

I was, and I am, your eternal admirer. I don't care what the end will be -- if there is one.

Happiness is found, sometimes, when you don't really expect it...yesterday was the prove.

Thanks for your lovely smile when I said happy birthday. Thanks for that familiar lip curve and words "eh, makasih banget ya!". Thanks for opening a nice conversation first. Thanks for asking about my brother. Thanks for telling me that your mom's sick (and I hope she's going to get well soon :)). Thanks for giving me hints on doing OpenOffice task ("yang penting harus taktis!"). Thanks for making me wanna cry, but maybe you wouldn't understand why.

Thanks.

You don't know how much all of that mean to me. You don't know how every single of your word was recorded in my mind to encourage myself whenever I need recharge. You don't know that you've just made my day.

Little things won't matter to you--eyesight, bare touch, or single smile. For me, it's my personal wonders of the world.

I may have said these many times, but still...

I keep dreaming that someday you're gonna realize that I'm here. Through all the embarrassment and pain and tears and crazy smiles, I never gave up hope. I just want you to know one thing, one essential thing. I hope you know the message I've been trying to sent, through gestures, intonation, mimic, and midnight monologue....

I love you.

I'm gonna keep dreaming, so if you're interested, dream a little dream for me. If you're not, I won't be hurt. I can't define hurt if I'm able to choose your smile instead.

So thanks once again, my existential love. I wish you a very peaceful night.

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